date: Aug 13, 2018
I just hate myself sometimes.
I felt guity all the time. I felt I should not speak. I feel I am disturbing everyone. I hate to be a laughter. I am afraid to be an attention.
But I want attention. I feel self-contradicted. I should not be doing this.
But I hope I am popular. But no one really cares me. I realized I am just nothing.
Sometimes, I see my project or my photograph gets attention, but I am also really concerned; I know critic is necessary, but I fear it.
I hate myself.
I want to change, and I hate myself.
And now I know. Thank you. And I will be a listener. I should not say anything.
THANK YOU. AND I STILL HATE MYSELF.